The Author Returns

So, I’ve gone and done it.

I’ve made  a decision I have been wrestling with for ages.  I’ve put Book Publishing on hold (as a business) in order to get my own work out.

I wanted to be a career author, and so it begins.

I have finally reached the end-stages of several stories and working on a few other manuscripts.  I will be putting my Author Website back online and will have a quite a few eBooks available as soon as they get back from the Editor.  I hope to publish a couple of books this year as well.

So, keep an eye out!

I’ll post a few stories here as I gain momentum.




It’s My Turn…

milky-way-stars-night-sky.jpgIn February, we moved to Tucson, AZ.  What a great city!  The traffic sucks, but not like Seattle at rush hour.   He has friends here, and now, so do I.  I have a social life!  My life is full of interesting characters, like the new ones in the stories I have been writing.


I’m surrounded by lovers of theater and music; I’ve spent a lot of my life around artists, dancers, actors, and musicians.  But, the Muse, she is so very enthusiastic right now–the living creative spirit is here!

I’ve been writing.  Hard.  Consistently.  I am determined, and motivated.

My new author website will be up in a week or so.  There will be news about all new forthcoming  books, ebooks, and print books.  There will be story excerpts.

I honestly have no excuse for being so sporadic on social networking and writing blogs, except to say that the books won’t write themselves…and I have a life.

Thank you to my devoted readers who still send me emails and follow me.  But no,  I’m not yet sure when I will begin a new Radio Show.  I only have 2 hands, and I can’t do it all at once.  I suppose I should hire an Assistant…we shall see.

In the meantime, I will let you all know what is coming and when; but feel free to continue sending me those thoughtful and sometimes hilarious emails. They always make my day!


Much love to you all…






Been a while…

C.D.Grant2015Hello everyone! It’s been a while since I have written in this blog.  And I apologize to my followers for being absent for so long.  I should really hire an assistant so that I can get more writing done, but that’s just not an option at this time.  You wonder why I am MIA so much?

Well,  let me enlighten you…


One, I’m a Graphic Designer, a Web Developer/Designer and Web host, not to mention Webmaster.  I have 6 websites to maintain…so redesigns and updating happen regularly. I’m updating 3 of them now, and about to build a few others for new clients.

I’m not only an author, but also a Publisher, and I am currently in the process of publishing a few new authors so I have not had time to do much of my own writing this year, but I’m working on that in my off time. (when I have off time)

And finally, for those of you who have known or followed me for the past 10 years, I finally have a life!  I moved to Arizona a few years ago, I’m in a meaningful and committed relationship, and….well, let’s just say that things are happening in the world of C.D.Grant!

I’m slowly coming back, so keep an eye out!



God Woke Me Up This Morning…

Photo by Keith Riley-Whittingham
Photo by Keith Riley-Whittingham

“Create in me a clean heart, oh God
And renew a right spirit within me
Create in me a clean heart, oh God
And renew a right spirit within me

Cast me not away from Thy presence, oh Lord
Take not Thy holy spirit from me
Restore unto me the joy of Thy salvation
And renew a right spirit within me”

Continue reading “God Woke Me Up This Morning…”

When A Woman’s Heart Is True…

Author Photo©2015, C.D.Grant. All Rights Reserved.
Author Photo©2015, C.D.Grant. All Rights Reserved.

“When A Woman’s Heart Is True…”

Her knowledge of “self” for definition
sometimes hidden in denial for a time
is so very total & extremely profound
and unveiled layer by painful layer…..

She belies the physical, for she is more
She is her own reason for being



She is not lacking in anything
She is internally self-sufficient
not a half, but a whole….already complete
needs no one else for this task.

She is a whole woman of substance
not diminished by reason or debate
She can hide the pain of words & actions
She will cry alone at the fear of abandon.

Her personality is an enclosed wonderland
opened with a key of magical possibilities
“love” is her true self – magnified for all
Her identity welcomes the honesty & truths
hidden within a world of lies, deceit & pain.

Her gift to you is unconditional love & faith
Her gift to herself is her body & soul
She knows the way to give herself true pleasure
fulfilling endless moments of damning loneliness.

Only she can find the vast wells of spirituality within
waiting to overflow with compassion for the unloved
She accepts that none is unworthy, only ignorant of her nature
Her heart ready to expand to accept yet again more pain, is her lot.

She is a whole woman of substance
not diminished by words or actions of another
She gives her body as her lovers playground
Lovingly enduring and willingly accepting all from your vanity

She is an amazing woman with a gift….
Hers is a unique expression of self ….
She is awesome in her own right….
Hers is a gift like no other…

When a woman’s heart is true…
She is free.

© 2006, Carolanne Grant. All rights reserved.

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Wringing tears from stone

“You can beat a stone to dust, yet you can never cause it to cry out in pain” – C. D. Grant, 2015

Alicja Colon

The only thing you can hurt, is yourself. 

A woman commented to me a few weeks ago, “Young lady, you are always wearing a bright beautiful smile!  We never know if you are going through anything, or if you are in pain, because no one ever sees you without a smile.”  I just smiled, winked, and kept moving.

The truth is, some days, the reality of life slaps you in the face, and it is impossible to smile around it.  Just like the impossibility of causing a stone pain. I simply don’t leave the house those days.  I reflect and meditate.  I pray while I try to empathize with people in a world that no longer cares.  I try not to dwell too long on the fact that forming human connections in a digital world is a useless endeavor, and that moments of shared happiness are dependent upon my digital connection to the rest of the world.

And now,  here I sit, staring at the wall that holds those stones that I tried to beat to dust so that I could finally be free.  I’m supposed to be writing a research paper right now, but my mind won’t allow me to focus on that particular task.  So, here I am, writing to keep the tears at bay. Those tears, my reflections–have absolutely nothing to do with what I am writing today, but then again, perhaps they do.

Those who know me, know that I own terrific nomadic tendencies.  However, thinking on my heritage, the nationalities from whence I came, it finally clicked.  My ancestors were gypsies, farmers, fishermen, and homesteaders; they traveled with the seasons and made their homes where they landed.

While I am not entirely ‘lonely’, I do miss sharing life with another individual.  I miss having friends who share my interests and motivations.

I don’t say this for pity, or sympathy; I’ve just never had a true ‘home’, no place where I felt like I belonged–nowhere to unpack and throw away the boxes (because I never wanted to leave)

But is this pattern really just a part of who I am?  Or is it simply because I am human,  and cannot ignore that there’s that part of me who wants to find a mate, make a home, and never wander again?

This is just today’s momentary reflection, and I’m not a stone.

But I’ve just worked it out by writing, to be shared with whomever may be out there and reading.

So I’m smiling again, but now I must go write that paper that is due in a few hours.

Dear World…

Author Photo©2015, C. D. Grant, All Rights Reserved.

I love you irregardless of what you eat, smoke, or drink. I love you no matter who you choose to sleep with, what gender you identify with, or that you have a chosen lifestyle…these are your personal decisions.

I don’t care what your skin color is, what nationality you are, who your ancestors were or what country they came from.

It doesn’t matter where you live or who you love, I love you all—and my love is non-judgmental, non-discriminating, and non-class related; it gives no matter as to your industry, celebrity, average or below-average lifestyle. My love is not financially motivated, nor politically defined. It doesn’t matter what your religious beliefs may be, or that your spiritual practice may differ from mine.

For those who are alone in the world, and think that you have no one to listen to your heart, to move your spirit, or feed your intellectual center… I just want you to know that someone else out here is more in tune with you than you think. I’ve been thinking of you, praying for you, and ready to listen to you if you feel like reaching out.

I love you because it is who I am, it is my life’s purpose, my reason for being, my path, and my joy.

I love you because you are a child of the universe; borne of the only world that we humans will ever share (in this lifetime).

The only thing I have to share with the world is love. Whether through pen or spoken word, I give you love without self-seeking, without need for promotion, and without self-serving pride.

Today is my 50th birthday, and I’ve learned that love shared with the utmost gratitude and the deepest humility is genuine, compassionate, understanding, forgiving, and honest.

My love has no boundaries, and I can accept that it is not always returned.

Carolanne D. Grant

Holiday Wishes….

Carolanne is getting a breather from academia at the moment, although I will still be studying to get ahead of my course schedules; but while I was busy, it seems that the holiday’s have come upon us full force.

For many of us, it is a time for comforting memories, or missing those who have left this world, and for some–it’s about missing those who may have transitioned to other places in life. For some of you, it’s the rush and rumble of traffic and travel, shopping, and good-natured arguments as last-minute shopping gets done and extra guests at the table inspire yet more cooking.

Whatever you may be doing this Holiday Season, I wish you a safe, blessed, and beautiful time…


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